On a different level, using game-simulation theory, i wonder if i might be a robot.
I was spawned as an X-Y DNA program download - don't understand what's going on in my own body/brain - i see world characters played on a computer screen - but have no way of verifying or influencing them.

That reminds me of Robert Sapolsky's theory that we have no free will, none. That's sort of a random video of him I linked just for reference, but his logic makes sense and it's based on decades of observations of... I believe baboons. And I've always had a similar theory, though from a much less scientific place. My theory is that people are just like water -- we follow the easiest path, period. Water never flows up, even in Taitung! "But what of the person who runs into a burning house to save a stranger?" My response would be that for that person, for whatever reason, doing that is easier for them than doing nothing; in other words, it would be more painful for them to do nothing than to risk injury.

One interesting aspect of Sapolky's theory is that, as he points out, if we have no free will, there is no such thing as a hero, nor do prisons or criminal punishment serve any purpose. He has some compelling aruguments to support his world view.